one know in the yes

oh
and I thought I could
have known it all ..

she was on my shoulder,
the day looked like silver I could
wear ..

the bird dive,
salmoi8n cakes,
new underwear,
the extra money on a paycheck,
her smile when the frown was popular,
the cheap car running like expensive liquor,
and
I figured I had it all figured out ..

the jinx
in a bottle of jax,
the ball in a bag of snakes - and I
was convinced that if I didn't know it
that it would be no big deal ..

we don't ever get the answers when
we need em,
we just convince ourselves that we have the answer
to make it easier to sleep,
to get the cob webs out of the chains spokes ..

it was all easier when Carly would sing
'NOBODY DOES IT BETTER',
but there is always someone that does ..

everyday,
better,
everyday,
better ..

and I'm the fool on the butter churner
chewing my nails as though I'm nourished and
saving money as
the newest chip falls from Wall Street
and again I'm trumped,
fooled,
shoved into another story,
the next memory for the girl on the corner,
the dip on my old man's chip,
the last tooth in the 10 round blood bath,
the thorn that's going to hang in your
foot until you decide that chinese water torture is neat
and
all the
rumors become wind from my ass
and
fuck

fuck
fuck,
I know nothing
and

it
is

about as content
as
this sandwich is going to get tonight ..